So I LOVE it at Icing. :) Seriously, I have so much fun and the time goes by super fast. And I've already spent way too much money there... lol. Nate's birthday was a blast! And we're having a bbq on sat. still, so there's still much partying to come. I really like shopping for him. I just really like shopping.

We started running in the mornings, I actually really enjoy it! I feel much better, and I'm actually waking up. I have really struggled with simply GETTING up, and out of bed for a very long time. I will hit snooze for hours if you let me. (My poor husband...). So I feel very proud of myself that I've been waking up the first time the alarm goes off and sometimes before! This is all thanks to lots of encouragement from my wonderful Nate. I would not have been able to do it without him. I hope I can keep the trend going!


Now I need to get my photography business truly up and running. I'm trying to decide what I want to do for my website. There's nifty flash websites I would love... but I might just keep it as a blog for now until I make a little more money. I also need my new dslr. I only have film and as much as I love film for my artsness stuff, like b/w, it just is not realistic for what I want to do to make money: portraits, weddings, and ballroom coolness, etc. Plus I really want a mac now thanks to my intro to graphic design class.... but they're a little spendy. I just need to make a lot of moolah super fast so I can get everything I want! :D But a camera first... definitely, so I can actually start making $.

Life is a rollin'

Sweet! I survived school! It's amazing! I think I passed everything... I won't know for awhile. :D

Nate is officially gradumatated! And he has some jobs! He's writing podcasts for his brother and he has some good prospects for production companies. I'm super excited!

And I don't know why all that is the wrong color and highlighted, and I can't fix it, so deal. lol.
(it's kinda driving me crazy, personally...)

I also started at Icing yesterday... it will be fun! Completely different, but it will be good. I'm training at Claire's in Fashion Place this week, and next week I'll be in university. It is quite bizarre not being at motherhood, I've been there for so long.

Can I tell you how nice it's been to relax? I took the weekend off, and today I had off as well. I think I'm still catching up on sleep from the whole last semester, cuz seriously, I went to bed at midnight, didn't wake up til after 11, then took a nap again! I was SO lazy, and it felt SO good. I've just been reading, and playing civilization, and watching t.v. and making tacos... just doing whatever the heck I want and it's been amazing.

I finally feel like life is moving forward somewhat and it feels incredible.

Random thoughts

So many things are happening...

School is ALMOST OVER!! I can't believe that there is an end in sight! I just have finals left!

Nate's graduating next week too- hallelujah, it's taken a long time. Hopefully now life will begin to move forward.

Speaking of moving forward... I'm still not pregnant. Now I'm to the point of, I don't care right now and I'm not going to worry about it if it doesn't happen for awhile... I can worry in a few years if it doesn't. Maybe we just aren't ready to have a baby and God is like, you really want one, huh? Well I don't think so! You can't feed yourselves! And he's probably just laughing at us trying. Oh well. I'm sure it will happen eventually.

I really really really miss ballroom now. :( If I don't get prego I think I'll try to get on the summer team. That would be fun!

I'm changing jobs! Well, I'm still sticking w/ the hood part time somewhat, just cuz I love so many of the people there! It's really hard to leave for so many reasons, and really easy for a few... ah well. I'm going to Icing in the Orem mall. We'll see if I like it. I really hope I do, but if not I guess there's always somewhere else.

Can I tell you how great it is that it's WARM! It makes me so happy! I don't dread waking up anymore! But I do wonder if I've got some kind of issue, I have no energy,... maybe that will change when I'm less stressed, who knows?

AaaaaaaaaaHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

To go to school, or not to go to school? And Ballroom Photography...

Okay, so seriously, I cannot find any sites that have ballroom photography: I'm talking fine art, gorgeous portraiture type photography: not your snapshot competition photography.... I am shocked! Looks like there is a wide open field in that department! Seriously, these were all I could find (granted it wasn't a horribly long search, but ya know).

Also, I need help!! The last day to withdraw from classes is tomorrow... and I can't decide! I really want to, but I really don't want to. Pros of staying: I would be one more semester closer, be done w/ all my generals, and have learned photoshop, illustrator, etc.... I CAN do it, and I'll pass, and even do pretty well, just not as well as I want to (I can't spend as much time on all of my classes as what I need to)

I want more time for everything! There is so much I want to do and learn and try...

AAH! I almost just got hit by a car on the tv! No seriously, I looked up at the wrong second, and I'm so tired, I thought I was driving for a second and that I was going to run into someone....(it was a brake commercial!)

Apparently I drive too much... wow, that was freaky and hilarious... random.

Anyway, now that my heart is slowing down...

what I was saying is that I'm so interested in so many things, and there are so many things that I want to do and learn and be better at- photography, etc. But I DON'T HAVE TIME AND IT'S DRIVING ME CRAZY! and I keep trying to add MORE things into my crazy schedule, but I'm already maxed to the limit, what am I DOING? I seriously am losing it, this semester is a lot harder than any other semester, especially in the case of homework, and I'm so behind already, plus all of the stress of work... let alone anything else I'm doing. Something needs to change, and the one thing I want to drop I can't drop, and I'm hating this feeling of no escape. grr.

I know, I just need to be patient, May will be here soon, but I don't know if I can make it that long... it's not even midterm!

Goings On

Well I'm definitely starting to feel better. It was a super hard month, but it's over now.

I started the Eager study (it's a study looking at the effects of taking low dose aspirin and how it affects conception and gestation (it's already had huge proven benefits, they just need to make it "official", thus the need for volunteers to track actual results) and they're looking for women who have had one or two miscarriages). They will even give me a free fertility moniter, pregnancy tests, and ultrasounds (once I get pregnant). Plus now that found a midwive's clinic to go to, I feel like I have doctors who will actually help me! It's fabulous. So I'm hoping we will be able to get pregnant again soon. It took us a year last time, so hopefully not that long! If it takes longer than six months my midwife will start me on fertility meds (which pretty much guarantees twins or triplets even on the very lowest dose). Wahoo, that would be an adventure.

I'm so crazy busy, which is good in some regards, I just wish I had more time for everything. Like time to do my homework- what? But it keeps me distracted and is also helping me to figure out what is important to me, what I really want to be doing, etc. I'm lovin' photography, wishing I had more time for mary kay, and trying to figure out if I can start a successful photo business w/o a degree. I may be asking for models soon! lol

We'll found out in March about Grad school- Nate's applied to USC and BYU. He also wanted to apply to NYU but he ran out of time. So we have to see what will happen- it's driving me crazy already.

We also have court on the 12th! After 3 1/2 years, we will finally be able to see Adele. Goodness it has been absolutely ridiculous. This is the final trial (hopefully). We've been to court so many times already. I hope things go well, at least we have a better lawyer this time!