To go to school, or not to go to school? And Ballroom Photography...

Okay, so seriously, I cannot find any sites that have ballroom photography: I'm talking fine art, gorgeous portraiture type photography: not your snapshot competition photography.... I am shocked! Looks like there is a wide open field in that department! Seriously, these were all I could find (granted it wasn't a horribly long search, but ya know).

Also, I need help!! The last day to withdraw from classes is tomorrow... and I can't decide! I really want to, but I really don't want to. Pros of staying: I would be one more semester closer, be done w/ all my generals, and have learned photoshop, illustrator, etc.... I CAN do it, and I'll pass, and even do pretty well, just not as well as I want to (I can't spend as much time on all of my classes as what I need to)

I want more time for everything! There is so much I want to do and learn and try...

AAH! I almost just got hit by a car on the tv! No seriously, I looked up at the wrong second, and I'm so tired, I thought I was driving for a second and that I was going to run into someone....(it was a brake commercial!)

Apparently I drive too much... wow, that was freaky and hilarious... random.

Anyway, now that my heart is slowing down...

what I was saying is that I'm so interested in so many things, and there are so many things that I want to do and learn and be better at- photography, etc. But I DON'T HAVE TIME AND IT'S DRIVING ME CRAZY! and I keep trying to add MORE things into my crazy schedule, but I'm already maxed to the limit, what am I DOING? I seriously am losing it, this semester is a lot harder than any other semester, especially in the case of homework, and I'm so behind already, plus all of the stress of work... let alone anything else I'm doing. Something needs to change, and the one thing I want to drop I can't drop, and I'm hating this feeling of no escape. grr.

I know, I just need to be patient, May will be here soon, but I don't know if I can make it that long... it's not even midterm!

Goings On

Well I'm definitely starting to feel better. It was a super hard month, but it's over now.

I started the Eager study (it's a study looking at the effects of taking low dose aspirin and how it affects conception and gestation (it's already had huge proven benefits, they just need to make it "official", thus the need for volunteers to track actual results) and they're looking for women who have had one or two miscarriages). They will even give me a free fertility moniter, pregnancy tests, and ultrasounds (once I get pregnant). Plus now that found a midwive's clinic to go to, I feel like I have doctors who will actually help me! It's fabulous. So I'm hoping we will be able to get pregnant again soon. It took us a year last time, so hopefully not that long! If it takes longer than six months my midwife will start me on fertility meds (which pretty much guarantees twins or triplets even on the very lowest dose). Wahoo, that would be an adventure.

I'm so crazy busy, which is good in some regards, I just wish I had more time for everything. Like time to do my homework- what? But it keeps me distracted and is also helping me to figure out what is important to me, what I really want to be doing, etc. I'm lovin' photography, wishing I had more time for mary kay, and trying to figure out if I can start a successful photo business w/o a degree. I may be asking for models soon! lol

We'll found out in March about Grad school- Nate's applied to USC and BYU. He also wanted to apply to NYU but he ran out of time. So we have to see what will happen- it's driving me crazy already.

We also have court on the 12th! After 3 1/2 years, we will finally be able to see Adele. Goodness it has been absolutely ridiculous. This is the final trial (hopefully). We've been to court so many times already. I hope things go well, at least we have a better lawyer this time!