I am very happy to be in school again. I wish I could just go to school or just work, but just going to school is not very realistic and just working would throw me into depression... no way jose. I love to learn! And I'm excited about my classes... a little stressed out because they aren't working out quite how I wanted them to. I was supposed to take one of my classes at 8am so I could have a breakfast break and a lunch/homework break, but it was full. Oh well. I like the teacher in the afternoon better anyway, it just means that I have classes straight from 11 til 5. At least they're not as far away from each other as they were last semester. And hopefully I can get into voice lessons, I'm excited, but her spots are pretty full and I don't exactly have a flexible schedule. lol.
It's also hard being back in school, I don't feel back to myself yet. Work is much harder tho, so I won't complain about school. I also got into my photo 2 class, and I'm not going to kid myself, it will be a lot of work, but I think I'll learn a lot. Only 16 weeks, right? I do need to figure out how I'm going to take care of myself- like eating. Well, eating more regularly.... I keep grabbing things like skittles and that just doesn't do it. I love real food, just wish I had more time! Although this way I can take photos and do labs and homework in the mornings, which will be good.
Monday, January 12, 2009
Friday, January 9, 2009
Heartache
I just lost my 2nd baby. 10 weeks along this time. I don't know what else to say, except that I just want a baby, and this feels really, really unfair. I don't think I'll feel good again until I can get pregnant again, and keep it in me.
And thank goodness for painkillers, it even helps dull my emotional pain somewhat, until I can deal with it better. (Don't worry, I'm not going to become a drug addict!)
And thank goodness for painkillers, it even helps dull my emotional pain somewhat, until I can deal with it better. (Don't worry, I'm not going to become a drug addict!)
Thursday, January 1, 2009
A New Day
I can't believe how quickly 2008 flew by. It was a busy year! Lots of work and school. Fun summer time activities, and lots of waiting. Hopefully getting past that part soon.... lol.
I'm looking forward to the new year. There is so much that I hope to happen this year, and lots of changes coming. Nate will graduate in April, and in March we'll find out if we're moving to L.A. or not. We may be going to Canada for the summer to work and get some money, we'll see about that. I really want to get more involved with Mary Kay, I enjoy it, I've just been so busy I haven't put much into it, and if I put a little more time in, it would actually give me more time in the future. I have so many things that I want to do, or do better, or change about myself. It's the perfect time to start.
A year is not much time when you really think about it. When I was little it felt like forever, and now it feels like no time at all!
I've known Nate for four years now. We had our first date and kiss on New Year's Eve, the last day of 2004. We dated 3 months before getting engaged, and had known each other 9 months when we got married. I'm still happy. :D And plan on staying that way for my whole life. I couldn't have chosen anyone better for me. And I love him so much! I know there's times when I get frustrated because we aren't in a "stable" place in life, but I also realize that one day we will be, and I need to learn to be patient, lol.
So funny stories about last night. We had a few friends over for games and such (it was so fun!). We tried setting two people up, that didn't work out as well as we had hoped.... but we tried. Then two of our friends cars got towed! We couldn't believe it, and we felt so bad. We live in a trailer park, and there are yellow lines you park inside to not get towed. Trouble is, the owners don't shovel our streets, so there's no way to park inside the yellow lines, one cuz of snow, two cuz you can't see them at all.... long story short, Nate is amazing and got their cars back without us having to pay! I was amazed, I have NEVER heard of a tow company letting you off the hook... go honey!
I'm looking forward to the new year. There is so much that I hope to happen this year, and lots of changes coming. Nate will graduate in April, and in March we'll find out if we're moving to L.A. or not. We may be going to Canada for the summer to work and get some money, we'll see about that. I really want to get more involved with Mary Kay, I enjoy it, I've just been so busy I haven't put much into it, and if I put a little more time in, it would actually give me more time in the future. I have so many things that I want to do, or do better, or change about myself. It's the perfect time to start.
A year is not much time when you really think about it. When I was little it felt like forever, and now it feels like no time at all!
I've known Nate for four years now. We had our first date and kiss on New Year's Eve, the last day of 2004. We dated 3 months before getting engaged, and had known each other 9 months when we got married. I'm still happy. :D And plan on staying that way for my whole life. I couldn't have chosen anyone better for me. And I love him so much! I know there's times when I get frustrated because we aren't in a "stable" place in life, but I also realize that one day we will be, and I need to learn to be patient, lol.
So funny stories about last night. We had a few friends over for games and such (it was so fun!). We tried setting two people up, that didn't work out as well as we had hoped.... but we tried. Then two of our friends cars got towed! We couldn't believe it, and we felt so bad. We live in a trailer park, and there are yellow lines you park inside to not get towed. Trouble is, the owners don't shovel our streets, so there's no way to park inside the yellow lines, one cuz of snow, two cuz you can't see them at all.... long story short, Nate is amazing and got their cars back without us having to pay! I was amazed, I have NEVER heard of a tow company letting you off the hook... go honey!
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